lost in this little fantasy world of mine
cant imagine this for any longer. seems like im living a dream. or the greatest nightmare i could ever forsee myself in. depends on my take on it. i guess. its been wonderful at times. this jc life of mine. but when it has sunk. it sinks so bad. beyond what i deem as savable. i must say.
its such a fine line between nightmares and dreams. what u desire or hope for is there for u. but seems to grow further and further away. each time u try to go for it. end up disheartened. the works. and u just lay wondering. what could have been. if i had done that. if only i had the chance to prove myself. or likewise. if only.
but yet there are certain things that keep me going from day to day. the inner motivation. whether to prove ppl wrong. or just to show my face. perhaps in the hope that something good or somewhat will come out of me going to school. in the hope that i can make someone's day perhaps. or just prevent someone's from sinking beyond hope. as mine would have seemed to sunk already. or maybe just to appease myself. make me think im half good and all. going to school and stoning there. of sorts.
i dunno. wish i could just do smth. to get out of this cycle. hm. stress relief? boo.
do i really know what i want?
if i do. its really really far away. thats all i know.
my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me
so wun u kill me. so i die happy.
my heart is yours. to fill or burst
to break or bury. or wear as jewellery
whichever u prefer
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